There are only a few moments in my life that I can actually recall being life changing. A few moments when I actually felt my heart transform into something Ive never imagined. One of those moments is the day I'm about to share with you.
The day of our first ultra sound was one of the most precious days of my life. I was the most nervous I had ever been up till this point in my life. I knew I had a little person growing inside of me. Not only that, but this little tiny human being that had been prayed for and wanted for so long. I was so anxious to see him/her on that ultra sound screen that I literally almost jumped out of my skin. We had finally done it! We created a little piece of both us that would give us our happily ever after.
Having this be one of the biggest moments in my life, I naturally dragged my dad with me. That may seem weird to most of you, but my dad was my go to person for all my female appointments my entire life. Even if he was just sitting in the car waiting for the appointment to be over, he was always there. Don't get me wrong, my dad was excited but his excitement for an ultra sound wasn't reading off the charts like perhaps a mothers would. My mother in law Angie, whom I also invited to this first ultrasound, I knew this experience would be something she would love to be apart of, and if it wasn't for her we wouldn't even have our little happily ever after. She was the one who told me about this fertility Dr. in the first place.
I don't think I have ever wanted an ultrasound probe inside of me so badly. lol. Sorry, but I'm just being honest. I remember laying there, my husband standing beside me holding my hand. The screen pops up and there it is. I was so afraid to look. After catching my breath I turned my head and saw... well... I didn't really see anything. I saw three bubbles that didn't have anything inside them. My Dr. starts shouting out medical terms and explaining different circumstances all the while in the back of my head I'm almost waiting for the let down. Ive heard of stories where women get positive pregnancy tests and blood work and have a pregnancy sac but no baby inside. Immediately I thought that is what happen to us. The party never stops after all.
"So the uterus has three pregnancy sacs." He says
Thats it! I knew it! its just a sac, there is no baby! Is what I instantly thought. Not even realizing that this guy just said the number THREE!?
"Ok, so we have three pregnancy sacs.. and that little movement we see right there.. thats a heart beat."
It was like the entire time up to him saying that, I had this fog of disbelief over my mind. And the second he showed me that little tiny flicker, all of that fog just melted away and instantly I was in love.
Being that I am very fairytale minded, the song "So this is love" from the Disney movie Cinderella started playing in my mind.
So this is love, hmm
So this is love
So this is what makes life divine
I'm all aglow, hmm
And now I know
The key to all heaven is mine
My heart has wings, hmm
And I can fly
I'll touch every star in the sky
So this is the miracle
That I've been dreaming of
So this is love
I was instantly jerked back into the present moment when he continued saying that sometimes there is a sac with no baby inside.Then all of a sudden my Dr. stops in the middle of his sentence as he rotates the probe a different way.
" Oh wait, never mind. There he is right there. Lets get the heart beat on that little guy."
TWO?!?!?! TWO BABIES?!?!?!
I automatically burst into laughter. A nervous as hell laughter.
We had two heartbeats! HOLY BALLS we are having two babies!! Is what I wanted to shout out to my husband.
Baby A and Baby B is what he marked them as on the ultrasound. But in my head I already had dozens of names I was sorting out. Penelope? Maximus? Khloe? James? Maybe Honey after my grandma? I could not believe that I was now the mother of two beautiful babies. They could not get here fast enough!
We made our way over to the last pregnancy sac and our Dr. shows us that this one was shaped a little bit differently than the other two.
"See how this one is shaped this way? Thats a bad sign. Thats a sign that it probably won't survive. BUT.. there is a heartbeat. And we could be wrong about these things and they correct themselves."
There it was. I knew there had to be something difficult coming. That other glass slipper was bound to drop at some point. Its weird... instead of getting upset or doubtful about the news of "Baby C," I immediately was overcome with an enormous amount of faith. I just had this feeling that MY baby would be ok. That the odds were stacked against him/her but they had part of me pumping through them, so I knew they would put up one hell of a fight.
So there it was... we were having TRIPLETS. Baby A, Baby B, and Baby C would arrive at the end of November/December and our fairytale would be very much complete.
Walking into the waiting room I looked at my dad and mother in law..
"Oh.. we're just having triplets." I said calmly.
To this day I have never seen eyes dilate so big and fast. lol.
The entire drive home we were in complete and total shock. I remember sitting in the back seat with tears just streaming down my face. How could I be so in love with three people I had never even met? I didn't know what they looked like, didn't know their names, and had only seen them for about 10 minutes. But I was head over heels in love. That can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence, world series kind of thing.
Growing up I never thought I could love someone more than my dad..it just wasn't possible. And then I met my husband Alex. Getting married and giving my entire life to him I thought I could never love anyone else more than him. But then seeing those three beautiful babies and hearing those little tiny heartbeats...I realized my perception of love was so incredibly small before then. THIS is what the fairytales were talking about. THIS is the type of feeling that breaks the spells of evil queens, saves kingdoms, and makes dreams come true. So THIS is love.