What happens when the Princess isn't rescued right away? The tower door remains locked and as much as her heart screams to be let out, there she waits.Snow white sings, Someday my Prince will come. But what happens when you already have your Prince? When he defeats the dragon, climbs the tower, and is just standing on one side of the door and you remain locked on the other side and no matter how hard he fights and tries... he just cant rescue you.
There is always a point in every young girls life when she thinks about certain moments in her life and what they will be like. First kiss, wedding day, getting pregnant, giving birth. Those were my huge moments in life I always wondered about. Even begin around 10 years old I would imagine myself in my fluffy wedding dress marrying my prince charming. Then shortly after becoming a mommy to a beautiful baby. First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes a baby in the baby carriage after all, right? I remember sitting back in the hospital bed, not able to move my legs at all and having the nurse and my husband Alex on either side of me. The Dr...the Dr... well she was in my crotch, there really is no sweet way to put that. I remember right before my first push taking a big breath and for a split moment I closed my eyes and traveled back in time. Back to a time when I was just a little girl playing with barbies safe and sound my room. At that moment when she told me to push I just wanted to be a little girl again. I Just wanted my safe place. I just wanted my dad. Not feeling anything physically and everything emotionally I began to push... I held my husbands hand and literally trying to think of movies or shows where people gave birth. I had NO IDEA what i was doing! The nurse to the left of me holding my leg began to count as I was pushing. " one, two, three, four, five, six..." she said. "What does that mean? Why are we counting now???" I somewhat softly shouted in total confusion and out of breath. "Don't count." - my Dr said. two pushes later we, i mean I had delivered our first baby. My childhood assumption of it being like going "big potty" was pretty much accurate. That exactly what it felt like but from a different location on the body if that makes sense. Another nurse quickly took our 1st beautiful little one away and began to clean her up just like they would any other newborn. Me and Alex hadn't had the chance to look at her yet. That little lamb was Miss Honey Lovelle Robles. First quadruplet born on 7/8/13 "ok, your doing great, lets push again." My Dr. said. another deep breath and a long hard push and we had our second quadruplet here. That little lamb was Miss Alabama Scarlett Robles. Second quadruplet born on 7/8/13 at that moment I quickly asked my Dr what she looked like, and all I can remember her saying is she is absolutely beautiful. 3 pushes later we had our third quadruplet with us.. now sadly this baby was lost about a month prior. So they gently wrapped this baby up and we were never able to see them. That little lamb was Boston Robles. Our third quadruplet born on 7/8/13 Ok, one more baby left. You are doing so good baby... you are doing so good. You are so strong. My husband would repeat over and over to me as he held my hand and kissed my forehead. two more pushes and we had the last little member of our quadruplets. That little lamb was Carlos James Edward Robles. The fourth quadruplet born on 7/8/13 I would like to say that the rest is pretty much smooth sailing but there are a few things again, i was not prepared for. Like apparently if giving birth to a SINGLE baby isn't enough, let alone FOUR, you are supposed to give birth -literally to something called your Placenta????? Yeah! Thats just rude. Like listen, i just pushed a human out of my VAGINA, I'm ready for pizza and a nap. Thanks So much. but no... "Ok, now we have to push out the placenta..take another breath and lets start pushing." my dr said. "Sweet lord Jesus" i mumbled as i took a big deep breath and began to push again...and again...and again..and again... after 15 minutes of solid pushing and nothing happening.. "Im so sorry, but we are going to have to do a D & C, the placenta is just not coming out." So immediately, with no warning, haven't seen or held my babies yet.. i was rushed into surgery. I told you guys, the party never stops in this Fairytale.
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